Hi all I’m new here and could do with some advice if that’s possible please? Sorry this is long but it’s very complicated!
I have been married for 19 1/2 years. Before we met my wife disclosed she had been raped and spent time in a psychiatric secure unit.
Early in our marriage my wife was physically violent to me on several occasions- I told one friend but was too ashamed and scared to admit to anyone else.
There were obviously issues in the bedroom department in our marriage due to her past but any time she showed any signs of being uncomfortable I would back away / stop.
18 months ago I supported her to finally report her abuse to the police. When she did so she realised she had been raped by 5 other men and groomed by a man in his 40s when she was 17. All very messy and painful to try and process for her.
She shares her story on social media and spends all day and night talking to other survivors of sexual abuse. This has not helped her mental health.
Sadly our marriage became cold and I was stupid and kissed another woman twice last summer. I immediately cut it off and told my wife. Her initial response was ‘ I don’t blame you as I’ve been so cold’
The next day she became a different person. She started saying I was a narcissist, finally she was free of me, her prayers had been answered etc. I said what are you talking about, you’ve never expressed that before. She said ‘it’s been revealed to me’.
She asked me to move out so she could have space to heal. I was reticent to do so but I was trying to save the marriage. This was 5 1/2 months ago (and was meant to only be for a week). I am currently driving an hour each day from a friends spare room to be with our kids each day.
I have engaged in therapy and tried to better myself. I have apologised for my part in the failed marriage. Sadly she has continued to manipulate and twist circumstances. She says she never did anything wrong in the marriage, it is all my fault.
Her latest line is I have been sexually coercive and controlling and abusive. When asked for actual details she would always say eg ‘you were moody if we hadn’t had sex for a month’ - I would apologise but point out that was not coercive at all. It is clear to me all her unprocessed trauma and anger at men is being unleashed on me.
She suggested we go to couple therapy a month ago. At the first appointment she had a mental breakdown / panic attack. She said she was only there as friends and family had pressured her to forgive but she didn’t want to, but would continue with the process. At the next session she read a declaration that I was sexually abusive and she was leaving me for good. I challenged her (she had an article in a national newspaper written last October whilst we were separated where she said “Quitting drink and drugs, she says she soon felt "loved, special, not dirty" for the first time in her life – and met X, who she married 19 years ago. “X knew about me being raped in my teens, and was very supportive, but he also knew it was up to me on if I wanted to report those crimes – like so many other women, I genuinely felt there was no point reporting it, and being rejected and dismissed would only make things worse. I’d found a good life at last and wanted to move forwards, not back.”) I said that was totally contradictory to her own words, she was changing the narrative to suit her decision. Her reply was “you gaslight me into gaslighting myself as you are an abuser”
I was shocked. We then went to a final therapy session this week where I apologised for any hurt I had done in the marriage and asked for forgiveness and to try and move forward for the sake of the kids. Her instant reply was to ignore all that and say my apology showed I was a classic abuser.
She also disclosed she knew the family court system inside out from her work with sexual abuse survivors so had got an IDVA and could press charges against me.
When I mentioned what about housing and kids moving forward her reply was ‘I’m the main carer so I will buy a large house (£400k) and the kids will live with me - they can stay with you one night a week and you can buy a crappy house (£150k)
I am being falsely accused by my own wife and have no idea what to do? I don’t blame her as she is reacting from her past trauma.
I tried my best to save the marriage but I believe (and so do independent trustees of our charity) that she is mentally unwell and transferring her unprocessed trauma to me.
We have 3 beautiful children ages 14,12 and 10. I see them every day. I put them to bed when she goes to bed early and I lock the house up. I have stayed for birthdays / Christmas etc.
Sadly I have to realise my marriage is over and my wife is playing a very dark game of lies and accusations to try and keep the children from me and keep the family home (and expects me to pay for it all)
Can anyone help or offer advice on what to do next? Thank you
I have been married for 19 1/2 years. Before we met my wife disclosed she had been raped and spent time in a psychiatric secure unit.
Early in our marriage my wife was physically violent to me on several occasions- I told one friend but was too ashamed and scared to admit to anyone else.
There were obviously issues in the bedroom department in our marriage due to her past but any time she showed any signs of being uncomfortable I would back away / stop.
18 months ago I supported her to finally report her abuse to the police. When she did so she realised she had been raped by 5 other men and groomed by a man in his 40s when she was 17. All very messy and painful to try and process for her.
She shares her story on social media and spends all day and night talking to other survivors of sexual abuse. This has not helped her mental health.
Sadly our marriage became cold and I was stupid and kissed another woman twice last summer. I immediately cut it off and told my wife. Her initial response was ‘ I don’t blame you as I’ve been so cold’
The next day she became a different person. She started saying I was a narcissist, finally she was free of me, her prayers had been answered etc. I said what are you talking about, you’ve never expressed that before. She said ‘it’s been revealed to me’.
She asked me to move out so she could have space to heal. I was reticent to do so but I was trying to save the marriage. This was 5 1/2 months ago (and was meant to only be for a week). I am currently driving an hour each day from a friends spare room to be with our kids each day.
I have engaged in therapy and tried to better myself. I have apologised for my part in the failed marriage. Sadly she has continued to manipulate and twist circumstances. She says she never did anything wrong in the marriage, it is all my fault.
Her latest line is I have been sexually coercive and controlling and abusive. When asked for actual details she would always say eg ‘you were moody if we hadn’t had sex for a month’ - I would apologise but point out that was not coercive at all. It is clear to me all her unprocessed trauma and anger at men is being unleashed on me.
She suggested we go to couple therapy a month ago. At the first appointment she had a mental breakdown / panic attack. She said she was only there as friends and family had pressured her to forgive but she didn’t want to, but would continue with the process. At the next session she read a declaration that I was sexually abusive and she was leaving me for good. I challenged her (she had an article in a national newspaper written last October whilst we were separated where she said “Quitting drink and drugs, she says she soon felt "loved, special, not dirty" for the first time in her life – and met X, who she married 19 years ago. “X knew about me being raped in my teens, and was very supportive, but he also knew it was up to me on if I wanted to report those crimes – like so many other women, I genuinely felt there was no point reporting it, and being rejected and dismissed would only make things worse. I’d found a good life at last and wanted to move forwards, not back.”) I said that was totally contradictory to her own words, she was changing the narrative to suit her decision. Her reply was “you gaslight me into gaslighting myself as you are an abuser”
I was shocked. We then went to a final therapy session this week where I apologised for any hurt I had done in the marriage and asked for forgiveness and to try and move forward for the sake of the kids. Her instant reply was to ignore all that and say my apology showed I was a classic abuser.
She also disclosed she knew the family court system inside out from her work with sexual abuse survivors so had got an IDVA and could press charges against me.
When I mentioned what about housing and kids moving forward her reply was ‘I’m the main carer so I will buy a large house (£400k) and the kids will live with me - they can stay with you one night a week and you can buy a crappy house (£150k)
I am being falsely accused by my own wife and have no idea what to do? I don’t blame her as she is reacting from her past trauma.
I tried my best to save the marriage but I believe (and so do independent trustees of our charity) that she is mentally unwell and transferring her unprocessed trauma to me.
We have 3 beautiful children ages 14,12 and 10. I see them every day. I put them to bed when she goes to bed early and I lock the house up. I have stayed for birthdays / Christmas etc.
Sadly I have to realise my marriage is over and my wife is playing a very dark game of lies and accusations to try and keep the children from me and keep the family home (and expects me to pay for it all)
Can anyone help or offer advice on what to do next? Thank you
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