Separated from ex Oct 21. I made poor choices and didn't feel she supported me with my mental health. History of drinking and suicide idealisation documented. She had a non molestation out on me six months after we split. She did let me see the kids up until this but I admit I wasn't the best. I've had no contact for 2.5 years. She said third party it would now have to go through court because of concerns but I don't see why she won't just let me see the kids. I haven't applied to court yet. She asked last week by third party again for consent to take them on holiday...said I would give it if she let me see them. No contact since. Am I being unreasonable here, I want to see my kids. What should I do to move ahead?