Sorry for the long post. I'm at a loss.
Background
I was arrested a year ago at a gathering and it went down as a DA initially. Social services got involved. SS report was all positive as no risk to the children, but alcohol was mentioned a lot (both of us). they confirmed I wasn't the one who was at fault in the said incident, as I received multiple marks but noted the relationship wasn't going too well.
It went NFA and the SS report was all positive.
Ex then moved a few hours away. We tried to make it work and i was there every weekend to see the children.
However she suddenly got a new partner and stopped all contact saying she needed time.
Finally agreed to every second weekend plus bank holidays etc. Her dropping off. Me doing the return. Which we did for 3/4 months and it was going fine in person or via third party. Albeit some disagreements over times etc.
But recently she has stopped contact again. Shes claiming everything she told the SS and the police last year was lies. Can she go back on everything with the police and SS?
Admittedly at the start of the separation this year, i was begging to see the kids, wanting to work on the relationship, but I wasn't then aware of her new partner. I was getting frustrated about her not replying about child arrangements and making plans to dates such as christmas. Also father's Day. I didn't stay child focussed, as she gave new dad the fathers day card from one child and me one from the other child only. I think this was to get a reaction, which happened. Didn't let me know about school change etc. I have never threatened to hurt her or called her bad names or anything. But said some personal stuff in reaction.
She would take a week to reply about child related matter, if she even bothered to... It's also been hard as I have not been able to see one of the children.
We was together 9 years, brought up 2 children together. The oldest isn't biologically mine, But he only knows me as dad and I brought him up since before birth. I haven't seen him since for months. The other child I was having every second weekend.
She expressed no concerns whilst I had him and never asked anything. From drop off on the Sunday, I wouldn't hear anything about the child, until the day of the next drop off (12 days). We had few messages in-between but there was obviously emotions on both sides. This was before I got used to being every second weekend dad. She was open to me having him for a week in half term etc.
But now she claims that I am threatening in messages and she feels she can't communicate, which seems to be since I asked for a DNA test (she had affairs) and since she found out I might have a new girlfriend (I haven't).
In hindsight, i should have been friendlier in communications to potentially avoid this.
I have a good job, ex claims benefits for mental health, anxiety, depression, bpd and self halm. I know not to mention this, and won't. I know she looks after the children well, so it's irrelevant.
She refused mediation at the last minute, although said she was willing at first. I have my MIAM certificate. She might see court as me trying to take the children away. But I only want to have an agreement in place.
So I'm now in a position of no contact. And trying my best not to contact her for child arrangements ( I've asked like once every week or so) but worry that she will go for the non mol charge or something if I continue to ask about child arrangements. I haven't been near her house in months and wouldn't.
I don't want to make things worse by submitting the C100, but I feel like it's the only option. I worry about the allegations that will be made, the cost and the time it takes which is the only thing keeping me from doing so. I could contest the allegations with my own, but don't want to get into mud slinging if It doesn't have to. I also think she had the break up planned, as when I look back, the choice of her words in messages make me think this. I was just blind sided and thought it would never get to this position.and we was doing well before the separation. I also took the separation and not seeing the children pretty badly by drinking more on the weekends when I didn't have my son. I didn't know how to handle such a big transition. But I realise I should have been doing the opposite.
I know she will focus on the alcohol and DV, as this was mentioned in the social report. I have stopped drinking, and will provide peth tests when needed. But a hair strand I'm not sure Id pass yet.
She hasn't replied in the last month to anything and I have only asked about making child arrangements, suggesting a parenting app, email communication. Asking what we can do to find an amicable solution and asked if there was a reason for refusing mediation, and if she has concerns we can try and sort them nicely etc. She has ignored it all. Although, she might not even have received them if I'm blocked. I'm not sure.
For the last 2 month or so, since finding this forum, I have stayed child focussed as all I want is to spend regular time with my son as I have always done. He loves his time with me just as much as I do and everyone knows that.
But I'm at a loss. I feel like I can't win in this situation, as I feel she has planned it from the start and I have no idea what's the best thing to do.
Leave it to calm down, contact her family members to try and get child arrangements, or continue with the C100 or even just give up completely.
Spending time with my son, was the only thing keeping me going. It's broken me.
Does anyone have any advice?
Background
I was arrested a year ago at a gathering and it went down as a DA initially. Social services got involved. SS report was all positive as no risk to the children, but alcohol was mentioned a lot (both of us). they confirmed I wasn't the one who was at fault in the said incident, as I received multiple marks but noted the relationship wasn't going too well.
It went NFA and the SS report was all positive.
Ex then moved a few hours away. We tried to make it work and i was there every weekend to see the children.
However she suddenly got a new partner and stopped all contact saying she needed time.
Finally agreed to every second weekend plus bank holidays etc. Her dropping off. Me doing the return. Which we did for 3/4 months and it was going fine in person or via third party. Albeit some disagreements over times etc.
But recently she has stopped contact again. Shes claiming everything she told the SS and the police last year was lies. Can she go back on everything with the police and SS?
Admittedly at the start of the separation this year, i was begging to see the kids, wanting to work on the relationship, but I wasn't then aware of her new partner. I was getting frustrated about her not replying about child arrangements and making plans to dates such as christmas. Also father's Day. I didn't stay child focussed, as she gave new dad the fathers day card from one child and me one from the other child only. I think this was to get a reaction, which happened. Didn't let me know about school change etc. I have never threatened to hurt her or called her bad names or anything. But said some personal stuff in reaction.
She would take a week to reply about child related matter, if she even bothered to... It's also been hard as I have not been able to see one of the children.
We was together 9 years, brought up 2 children together. The oldest isn't biologically mine, But he only knows me as dad and I brought him up since before birth. I haven't seen him since for months. The other child I was having every second weekend.
She expressed no concerns whilst I had him and never asked anything. From drop off on the Sunday, I wouldn't hear anything about the child, until the day of the next drop off (12 days). We had few messages in-between but there was obviously emotions on both sides. This was before I got used to being every second weekend dad. She was open to me having him for a week in half term etc.
But now she claims that I am threatening in messages and she feels she can't communicate, which seems to be since I asked for a DNA test (she had affairs) and since she found out I might have a new girlfriend (I haven't).
In hindsight, i should have been friendlier in communications to potentially avoid this.
I have a good job, ex claims benefits for mental health, anxiety, depression, bpd and self halm. I know not to mention this, and won't. I know she looks after the children well, so it's irrelevant.
She refused mediation at the last minute, although said she was willing at first. I have my MIAM certificate. She might see court as me trying to take the children away. But I only want to have an agreement in place.
So I'm now in a position of no contact. And trying my best not to contact her for child arrangements ( I've asked like once every week or so) but worry that she will go for the non mol charge or something if I continue to ask about child arrangements. I haven't been near her house in months and wouldn't.
I don't want to make things worse by submitting the C100, but I feel like it's the only option. I worry about the allegations that will be made, the cost and the time it takes which is the only thing keeping me from doing so. I could contest the allegations with my own, but don't want to get into mud slinging if It doesn't have to. I also think she had the break up planned, as when I look back, the choice of her words in messages make me think this. I was just blind sided and thought it would never get to this position.and we was doing well before the separation. I also took the separation and not seeing the children pretty badly by drinking more on the weekends when I didn't have my son. I didn't know how to handle such a big transition. But I realise I should have been doing the opposite.
I know she will focus on the alcohol and DV, as this was mentioned in the social report. I have stopped drinking, and will provide peth tests when needed. But a hair strand I'm not sure Id pass yet.
She hasn't replied in the last month to anything and I have only asked about making child arrangements, suggesting a parenting app, email communication. Asking what we can do to find an amicable solution and asked if there was a reason for refusing mediation, and if she has concerns we can try and sort them nicely etc. She has ignored it all. Although, she might not even have received them if I'm blocked. I'm not sure.
For the last 2 month or so, since finding this forum, I have stayed child focussed as all I want is to spend regular time with my son as I have always done. He loves his time with me just as much as I do and everyone knows that.
But I'm at a loss. I feel like I can't win in this situation, as I feel she has planned it from the start and I have no idea what's the best thing to do.
Leave it to calm down, contact her family members to try and get child arrangements, or continue with the C100 or even just give up completely.
Spending time with my son, was the only thing keeping me going. It's broken me.
Does anyone have any advice?