Hi, first time posting here, just looking for some guidance as I feel completely lost.
I first seperated from my wife over 2 years ago having been married for over 10 years. I have a property in my sole name with a sole mortgage which we were both living in, I moved out for 9 months as she didn't want to be with me, in this time I was renting and paying the existing mortgage, bills, and housefly food etc. I have 2 girls aged 10 and 6. After the initial 9 months we decided to give it another go and I moved back in but after a few months she wanted me out again, I couldn't afford to rent again having taken out a loan in the first place to cover the rental payments. I therefore moved from the Midlands to London to stay with my parents, my work is based in the Midlands but as it was Covid I have been able to work from home. Since moving to London over a year ago, I have recently had the divorce go through, in that time I have continued to pay the Mortgage and bills and Maintenance, she has only just taken on the bills now and asked me to increase the Maintenance payments. The issue I have is we have not been able to agree anything in regards to the property and kids, in general I get to see the kids every other week, Sat - Sun, I am not allowed to bring them back to London as she does not want them to stay with my parents, so I therefore have to book a hotel which I have been doing for over a year. now, there have been weekends where plans have changed and I have not been able to see them and have to wait another week, she has stopped any phone contact as she was nooyed I went to her family to sort things out which she did not appreciate. I can see the kids in the holidays for a few days but again I can't keep them any longer due to the cost of booking hotels, eating out, activities etc as I'm not allowed to bring them to my parents. It was my daughters 10th Birthday recently and I wanted to spend a few hours with her on her Birthday but she refused outright, after much persisting she agreed to let me see her for a few hours the day before, and when I called to wish her on her actual Birthday she never answered the phone. She does not want to discuss anything in regards to the property until my eldest daughter finishes primary school next year, she doesn't work so she can't take on the mortgage and won't be able to buy me out. I offered her mediation but she refused, I was going to continue with the solicior who did my divorce but I just wouldn't be able to afford it. I really don't know what to do, on one hand i'm thinking that I'm seeing the kids and that I don't really want to stir the pot anymore and jeopardise the time I do get to spend with them and on the other hand I feel like I'm being taken for a ride, I want more contact withe kids and to also be able to at least bring them to my parents in the holidays but she will just never allow that, also to be able to have some phone contact with them so that I know what they have been upto and getting on with school. I'm paying near enough what I should be paying in Maintenance but the additional cost is the travel and hotels, and now with Covid over I'm going to have to start going back to work on some days and that will be an additional travel cost to the Midlands, I have existing debts to pay which were the result of initially renting, I'm not even contributing at my parents because I just can't afford it with all my expenses. I really don't know if I should just carry on with how things are and see what happens in a few years, I just can't look forward with all this uncertainty and it is causing me so much anxiety, sometimes I feel like just going all out but I just don't want to make things worse and to not see my girls at all, also I wouldn't really be able to pay for a solicitor and be able to go to court anyway. Just feel completely lost at the moment and feel as if I have no way out of this mess.
I first seperated from my wife over 2 years ago having been married for over 10 years. I have a property in my sole name with a sole mortgage which we were both living in, I moved out for 9 months as she didn't want to be with me, in this time I was renting and paying the existing mortgage, bills, and housefly food etc. I have 2 girls aged 10 and 6. After the initial 9 months we decided to give it another go and I moved back in but after a few months she wanted me out again, I couldn't afford to rent again having taken out a loan in the first place to cover the rental payments. I therefore moved from the Midlands to London to stay with my parents, my work is based in the Midlands but as it was Covid I have been able to work from home. Since moving to London over a year ago, I have recently had the divorce go through, in that time I have continued to pay the Mortgage and bills and Maintenance, she has only just taken on the bills now and asked me to increase the Maintenance payments. The issue I have is we have not been able to agree anything in regards to the property and kids, in general I get to see the kids every other week, Sat - Sun, I am not allowed to bring them back to London as she does not want them to stay with my parents, so I therefore have to book a hotel which I have been doing for over a year. now, there have been weekends where plans have changed and I have not been able to see them and have to wait another week, she has stopped any phone contact as she was nooyed I went to her family to sort things out which she did not appreciate. I can see the kids in the holidays for a few days but again I can't keep them any longer due to the cost of booking hotels, eating out, activities etc as I'm not allowed to bring them to my parents. It was my daughters 10th Birthday recently and I wanted to spend a few hours with her on her Birthday but she refused outright, after much persisting she agreed to let me see her for a few hours the day before, and when I called to wish her on her actual Birthday she never answered the phone. She does not want to discuss anything in regards to the property until my eldest daughter finishes primary school next year, she doesn't work so she can't take on the mortgage and won't be able to buy me out. I offered her mediation but she refused, I was going to continue with the solicior who did my divorce but I just wouldn't be able to afford it. I really don't know what to do, on one hand i'm thinking that I'm seeing the kids and that I don't really want to stir the pot anymore and jeopardise the time I do get to spend with them and on the other hand I feel like I'm being taken for a ride, I want more contact withe kids and to also be able to at least bring them to my parents in the holidays but she will just never allow that, also to be able to have some phone contact with them so that I know what they have been upto and getting on with school. I'm paying near enough what I should be paying in Maintenance but the additional cost is the travel and hotels, and now with Covid over I'm going to have to start going back to work on some days and that will be an additional travel cost to the Midlands, I have existing debts to pay which were the result of initially renting, I'm not even contributing at my parents because I just can't afford it with all my expenses. I really don't know if I should just carry on with how things are and see what happens in a few years, I just can't look forward with all this uncertainty and it is causing me so much anxiety, sometimes I feel like just going all out but I just don't want to make things worse and to not see my girls at all, also I wouldn't really be able to pay for a solicitor and be able to go to court anyway. Just feel completely lost at the moment and feel as if I have no way out of this mess.