I'll keep it as brief as possible and do my best to keep it factual and free of emotion - I'd appreciate any advice or support as I go into this.
My ex partner and I are parents to a 4 year old boy.
Our relationship was relatively happy and although there were red flags with my ex partners behaviour, I was blind to them as during this time my self esteem was very low.
We were together for roughly 8 months when my we found out that partner was pregnant. Neither of us are high earners, nor do we have any family around to help and support so obviously we were both full of nerves, but absolutely delighted to be parents and were excited for the challenges it would bring. I was excited and proud to have my little family.
Now, I should refer to those "red flags" I mentioned earlier as it becomes relevant around here. Early in our relationship my ex partner was violent with me on several occasions. I was never seriously injured and the police / ambulance were never called but there were numerous times when she lashed out during an argument. This was shocking to me as I'd never had a partner lash out at me like that but like I said, my self-esteem was very low during this time and I would have put up with pretty much anything.
Shortly after our Son was born my partner's behaviour became much much worse. She became delusional, incredibly paranoid and very violent. She became convinced that I was having multiple affairs and that I was plotting against her. I was attacked multiple times in my sleep and repeatedly came home from work to find the doors barricaded shut and my property outside. None of these accusations were true. I loved her more than life itself and I was devastated by this.
I know now that she was logged into my emails so she was reading my every communication with everyone. There was no affair. There was nothing but work. But she was still convinced of the affair and believed I was speaking in coded language.
Things got worse and worse and it's hard for me to recall as I seem to have blocked a lot of it out. But I read through my old emails a little while ago to help me gain a timeline of all this and I found an email I sent to my best friend and I was basically fearing for my life. I was genuinely scared that she might kill me in my sleep and I instructed my friend to check in with me if I stop communicating.
In spite of all the red flags in the past, I believed that my ex partner was "ill" and that I needed to support her through this so I stayed in the family home (sleeping in the spare room). I knew that my partner had had mental health issues in the past and I guess I just normalised everything in the belief that it would get better. It didnt.
It got worse and worse until finally I was awoken one morning being attacked violently. I left.
So, we spent the next 3 years co - parenting during which my ex partner has continued to be abusive with financial and emotional manipulation and promoting parental alienation. I've learned to put my emotions aside and just tolerate it but I can't do that anymore.
Our son is starting school in September. Obviously, this means a new Monday to Friday schedule and we are miles apart from agreeing on anything at all.
We've been through mediation last month and it was a complete waste of time. I would now like to proceed with a Court Order for a 2-2-5-5 schedule.
We were never married but I am named on the birth certificate. I have been a part of our son's daily life since birth and I contribute 20% of my salary for maintenance.
I'm sure you can understand from my ex partners behaviour that she will not take this well and I am genuinely scared of what will happen next as we've all read the horror stories. But I have to do the right thing for our Son.
I was quoted £6500 to £7500 by a local firm and that is so out of my price range that it makes my head spin so I'm going in alone. I understand I may need a Solicitor or Barrister at some point and I'll find a way to pay for it.
I'm planning to start the ball rolling this week so I'd appreciate any help, advice or support.
My ex partner and I are parents to a 4 year old boy.
Our relationship was relatively happy and although there were red flags with my ex partners behaviour, I was blind to them as during this time my self esteem was very low.
We were together for roughly 8 months when my we found out that partner was pregnant. Neither of us are high earners, nor do we have any family around to help and support so obviously we were both full of nerves, but absolutely delighted to be parents and were excited for the challenges it would bring. I was excited and proud to have my little family.
Now, I should refer to those "red flags" I mentioned earlier as it becomes relevant around here. Early in our relationship my ex partner was violent with me on several occasions. I was never seriously injured and the police / ambulance were never called but there were numerous times when she lashed out during an argument. This was shocking to me as I'd never had a partner lash out at me like that but like I said, my self-esteem was very low during this time and I would have put up with pretty much anything.
Shortly after our Son was born my partner's behaviour became much much worse. She became delusional, incredibly paranoid and very violent. She became convinced that I was having multiple affairs and that I was plotting against her. I was attacked multiple times in my sleep and repeatedly came home from work to find the doors barricaded shut and my property outside. None of these accusations were true. I loved her more than life itself and I was devastated by this.
I know now that she was logged into my emails so she was reading my every communication with everyone. There was no affair. There was nothing but work. But she was still convinced of the affair and believed I was speaking in coded language.
Things got worse and worse and it's hard for me to recall as I seem to have blocked a lot of it out. But I read through my old emails a little while ago to help me gain a timeline of all this and I found an email I sent to my best friend and I was basically fearing for my life. I was genuinely scared that she might kill me in my sleep and I instructed my friend to check in with me if I stop communicating.
In spite of all the red flags in the past, I believed that my ex partner was "ill" and that I needed to support her through this so I stayed in the family home (sleeping in the spare room). I knew that my partner had had mental health issues in the past and I guess I just normalised everything in the belief that it would get better. It didnt.
It got worse and worse until finally I was awoken one morning being attacked violently. I left.
So, we spent the next 3 years co - parenting during which my ex partner has continued to be abusive with financial and emotional manipulation and promoting parental alienation. I've learned to put my emotions aside and just tolerate it but I can't do that anymore.
Our son is starting school in September. Obviously, this means a new Monday to Friday schedule and we are miles apart from agreeing on anything at all.
We've been through mediation last month and it was a complete waste of time. I would now like to proceed with a Court Order for a 2-2-5-5 schedule.
We were never married but I am named on the birth certificate. I have been a part of our son's daily life since birth and I contribute 20% of my salary for maintenance.
I'm sure you can understand from my ex partners behaviour that she will not take this well and I am genuinely scared of what will happen next as we've all read the horror stories. But I have to do the right thing for our Son.
I was quoted £6500 to £7500 by a local firm and that is so out of my price range that it makes my head spin so I'm going in alone. I understand I may need a Solicitor or Barrister at some point and I'll find a way to pay for it.
I'm planning to start the ball rolling this week so I'd appreciate any help, advice or support.